Monday Thru Friday is Becoming Hard........

Yes I am going to sound whiny, but I need to get it out and that is one of the reasons I have a blog.

I am thankful everyday for the blessings in my life. I have MORE than I need and more than many, many people will ever have.

So, why is Monday through Friday very hard? It is because I am at work and I want to be home with my 2 blessings. I want more time to fill my days doing the things I feel God is placing in my heart and my life. Don’t get me wrong I am blessed with a very good job with a very good boss and very good co-workers. This job has been a blessing in more ways than one over the last 6 years and I know God placed me here for a reason. I also know that I am NOT a career oriented person, I rather being making an impact other ways. I greatly respect others who are, but I just don’t feel this is where God wants me to be anymore.

I have mentioned a couple times before that I feel a stirring something big happening that only God knows what.

One of those things is I truly believe God is preparing me to be a stay at home Mom, but I just cannot fathom how at this point or when but the desire is the strongest it has ever been and it breaks my heart to leave my children every day.
Don’t get me wrong I am a very spoiled working Mom. I have been blessed with Grandma’s who watch my kids during the day and an Aunt. That has helped me a lot the last couple years, but I know God placed these children in my family and I want to be the one raising them and molding them in his precious word every day, not just 3 hours at night and two jammed packed days on the weekend. There are ministries I want to get involved in more and start and I just know so much more that I could be doing to praise Jesus and radiate God’s love every day in a different way than I am now.

Here is our schedule during the week.

Mommy up at 5/5:30 a.m.

Kiddos up at 6:30 a.m.

Everyone dressed and ready by 7:00 a.m. to either greet the babysitter for the day or pack in the car to go to the other babysitter for the day.

Mommy to work by 7:30 a.m.

Mommy home from work by 4:50 p.m.

Mommy kissing babies hello and immediately throwing some laundry in and figuring out what to have and make for supper if I don’t know already.

Supper usually on the table by 5:30/6:00 Clean up from supper going on or if it is nice a little play time outside until baths.

Baths happen anywhere from 6:30/7:00 p.m. depending on the season
Laundry folding might be occurring while kids are in tub or after or misc. stuff.

Downstairs after bath for a little play time or picking up or whatever.

Mo bottle by 7:45/8:00 p.m. and bed

EJ bed by 8:30/9:00

If everyone goes to bed on time and w/out any issues Mommy then packs up and washes bottles for the next day and everything else the sitters will need, maybe some dish washing, or picking up of toys, a little sitting on the couch and then to bed by 10 or so and repeat.

I don’t know how other Moms keep their houses clean, the meals prepared, the groceries bought, the laundry caught up and etc. With 2 children I don’t have enough time in the day. I can’t stay up any later than I do or I end up burning out and getting sick and what good is a sick Mommy??

So with all this whining going on I have to say that I think a lot of lifestyle, culture changes are in store for our family. I am unsure how long it will take and what all they will be, but I do know this; God Is working in it all. It’s exciting to me that he is working these changes, but also a little frustrating because I don’t know what all that entails or what it means or how long it will take, but I have to fully give it to him and trust him. I think we all know how difficult that can be, especially for a control freak like me. :)

Blessings on your day and thanks for even halfway reading this whiny little post!

And this was my verse for the day...pretty appropriate.

So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.
~ 1 Corinthians 15:58

URGENT CALL TO ACTION

Please go to this link URGENT CALL TO ACTION and sign the petition put together by joint council.

It is so sad and hard for those families who suffer the consequences of one bad decision made by an adoptive family that paints a horrible picture for every adoption. This bad decision could affect many families in process trying to bring children home, children that could be destined to life in an orphanage or on the streets and worse because of this families act with their son adopted from Russia.

Please click on the link and sign this petition and help save children's lives.

Please also pray for this boy who is going through this trial, the family that placed him on the plane, and for the Government's making decisions that could impact thousands of children and families.

I know what it is like to have the Government interfere as we came close to not having our daughter home before Guatemala shut down and so many children are still stuck in the process because of it. Please do not allow this to happen to more families and children who are suppose to be home with them.

Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek him.
~ 1 Chronicles 16:11

Blessed Easter!

I am late on the Easter post, but celebrating our Saviour was indeed special and we were blessed to be among family this past weekend. After church on Sunday I told my dad Happy Easter, and he corrected me and said no you say blessed Easter. So I pray everyone had a BLESSED EASTER.

We attempted a family photo..these were the best out of the lot. Maybe next time...




EJ's newest thing and we are still trying to figure out where she learned this one...but while I was attempting to take a pic of Mo she climbed to the top of the couch and said Attention Please. Don't you just love her bed head??



A few nights ago when it started warming up Mo woke up crying in his crib because he was too warm. I brought him down stairs and decided to change his diaper and he immediately passed out. I guess it was nice and cool here.



Just for cuteness!

Treasures

My kids are my greatest treasure here on earth....

Mo Mo in Mommy's Hat...ADORABLE if I don't say so myself!




My grown up EJ went to Sunday school for the first time and Daddy teared up. This is actually a pic of the second time she went, but she got nervous and didn't stay the second time, but for a 3 year old she is doing good. That same day she wouldn't stay for class she actually walked around the church with the big kids carrying her palm branches up to the alter, and then that is when Mommy started tearing up!

I am selfish, imperfect, and a work in progress....

I have been reading a book called One Million Arrows by Julie Ferwerda. I actually discovered this book from a recommendation on another blog and just knew I had to have it. It’s about raising your children to change the world, and not letting the world change your children….. I am only on chapter 3, but I would highly recommend the book.

So far I really love it. I am soaking it in, and praying I can do just that…..raise my God given children to help them discover and learn their purpose in God through Christ here on earth.

Ever since I brought Mo home in September I have felt this stirring inside; a need to be doing something…something only God knows what it is right now.

I say all the time life is not about me and my selfish desires; it is about my children. But, I need to learn that it is even so much more. God has blessed me as a wife, a mother, a nurturer, a want to help others, but I need to hone in on that at home more before I can do anything else.

I am so IMPERFECT! I fail everyday as a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a co-worker…everything. My little pea brain is trying to wrap around all these crazy feelings and thoughts I am having when really I need to soak in his word, get on my knees and pray and allow him to lead and show me his plan.

We all have talents that God has blessed us with and he is waiting for us to all play our part in his bigger plan.

I want so badly to do it, and my excuses for not doing it really are lame….

So there, I am admitting I need work…I always say I am a work in progress so now I know I need to remember and act on the purpose God has for me. I need to seek it, discern it, and act on it no matter how scary or crazy it may seem to me…that is Faith after all. What do they always say and I get to witness…. We need to have the FAITH OF A CHILD. Faith that is unwavering, unquestioning, pure, honest and simple.

Life here on earth is work and it is hard….the gratification is touching others who do not know of their salvation in Jesus and that our REST will come when we enter our heavenly home prepared by our Maker….the UNSHAKABLE KINDOM OF GOD

But my life is worth nothing unless I use it for doing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus- The work of telling others the Good News about God’s wonderful kindness and love.
-Acts 20:24

Exactly Why I DO NOT Want My Children To Be Happy.....

I have been meaning to post this link for quite awhile now and a lot of my bloggy buddies already have, but if you have not read this post you really need to. It really is Exactly why I do not want my children to be happy!

Click HERE.

It hit me last night....

Those who have adopted will know what I am talking about, but last night was one of those nights that I was flooded with emotion for Mighty Mo's birth mother. I am not sure if it is because today marks six months since we have been home, or because we are close to his first birthday or neither. It just always hits me when I least expect it, I remember many times with EJ too. I think of Mo's birth mother all the time, but last night as I had just finished giving him his bottle, and he fell asleep on my shoulder's it was all I could do to hold back the tears. I just squeezed him tighter as I held him and said a prayer for his sweet birth ma ma.

I can't imagine the huge sacrifice out of great love she made and hope she knows in her heart that he is loved and growing and just the most wonderful happy little boy.

This is one of Mo's referral pics. He only weighed 6lbs at 2 months old.




This is my handsome 20lb Mo Baby now.... LOVE HIM SO MUCH!