Monday Thru Friday is Becoming Hard........

Yes I am going to sound whiny, but I need to get it out and that is one of the reasons I have a blog.

I am thankful everyday for the blessings in my life. I have MORE than I need and more than many, many people will ever have.

So, why is Monday through Friday very hard? It is because I am at work and I want to be home with my 2 blessings. I want more time to fill my days doing the things I feel God is placing in my heart and my life. Don’t get me wrong I am blessed with a very good job with a very good boss and very good co-workers. This job has been a blessing in more ways than one over the last 6 years and I know God placed me here for a reason. I also know that I am NOT a career oriented person, I rather being making an impact other ways. I greatly respect others who are, but I just don’t feel this is where God wants me to be anymore.

I have mentioned a couple times before that I feel a stirring something big happening that only God knows what.

One of those things is I truly believe God is preparing me to be a stay at home Mom, but I just cannot fathom how at this point or when but the desire is the strongest it has ever been and it breaks my heart to leave my children every day.
Don’t get me wrong I am a very spoiled working Mom. I have been blessed with Grandma’s who watch my kids during the day and an Aunt. That has helped me a lot the last couple years, but I know God placed these children in my family and I want to be the one raising them and molding them in his precious word every day, not just 3 hours at night and two jammed packed days on the weekend. There are ministries I want to get involved in more and start and I just know so much more that I could be doing to praise Jesus and radiate God’s love every day in a different way than I am now.

Here is our schedule during the week.

Mommy up at 5/5:30 a.m.

Kiddos up at 6:30 a.m.

Everyone dressed and ready by 7:00 a.m. to either greet the babysitter for the day or pack in the car to go to the other babysitter for the day.

Mommy to work by 7:30 a.m.

Mommy home from work by 4:50 p.m.

Mommy kissing babies hello and immediately throwing some laundry in and figuring out what to have and make for supper if I don’t know already.

Supper usually on the table by 5:30/6:00 Clean up from supper going on or if it is nice a little play time outside until baths.

Baths happen anywhere from 6:30/7:00 p.m. depending on the season
Laundry folding might be occurring while kids are in tub or after or misc. stuff.

Downstairs after bath for a little play time or picking up or whatever.

Mo bottle by 7:45/8:00 p.m. and bed

EJ bed by 8:30/9:00

If everyone goes to bed on time and w/out any issues Mommy then packs up and washes bottles for the next day and everything else the sitters will need, maybe some dish washing, or picking up of toys, a little sitting on the couch and then to bed by 10 or so and repeat.

I don’t know how other Moms keep their houses clean, the meals prepared, the groceries bought, the laundry caught up and etc. With 2 children I don’t have enough time in the day. I can’t stay up any later than I do or I end up burning out and getting sick and what good is a sick Mommy??

So with all this whining going on I have to say that I think a lot of lifestyle, culture changes are in store for our family. I am unsure how long it will take and what all they will be, but I do know this; God Is working in it all. It’s exciting to me that he is working these changes, but also a little frustrating because I don’t know what all that entails or what it means or how long it will take, but I have to fully give it to him and trust him. I think we all know how difficult that can be, especially for a control freak like me. :)

Blessings on your day and thanks for even halfway reading this whiny little post!

And this was my verse for the day...pretty appropriate.

So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.
~ 1 Corinthians 15:58