Ohhh patience where are you???

I feel like I need extra, extra amounts of patience these days and I am failing to find it more than I care to admit.

EJ has been very trying lately. Small ones are so complex and it is so hard trying to figure out what exactly is going on.

I love her so very much and I feel she is still struggling and dealing and doesn't know how to express her feelings from her very traumatic ICU stay back in Oct. and the Dr. visits since then. She randomly brings up the gooyies from her EKG quite a bit and she suddenly panics when I try to clean her ears out. She is being a typical testing your boundaries 3 year old, but I think there is more to it. We are experiencing some sleep issues and other things too.

She is so much our laughter these days as well with the things she says and does. So it hurts to see her struggle and it's hard to keep the patience meter up during these times where she is not listening, acting out, and etc.

I am touched by the soul of our EJ and I realize with her precious kisses, snuggling, I love you's, and caring ways that there is so much eternal significance in these precious years that we as parents get to mold and shape our children for the kingdom of God. NO other task on earth seems quite as important to me right now then raising, training, and guiding my children.

I am still feeling very unsettled these days and have a hard time disciplining myself to dive into the word, get on my knees, and LET GOD lead the way. I want to lead my household by example and I know I need to do it and I just need to let go of control and allow God to have what is his.

Sorry for all the "drama" posts; I promise more cheeriness soon! Mighty Mo is going to be 1 very soon!

Grace, Peace, and Comfort to you all today.