December 22, 2009

Let me just start out by saying that I have a ton of blog posts in my mind that keep coming to me in the car on the way to and from work. It happens at these times because really this is pretty much the only time I am by myself and not meeting the needs of my 3 blessings at home and have time to think. At any rate I had a cutesy little post all ready, and then I read another blog and knew I had to post about the above mentioned date.

The post I read was about how the Holy Spirit spoke to her about adopting. I can relate so much to that because that is how we arrived at adopting our 2 precious blessings at home. To give you somewhat the shortened version of that, when we decided to adopt EJ from Guatemala I had felt it and heard Guatemala whispered across my soul before we were even close to starting the process there; seriously years before. And when we were asked if we preferred a boy or a girl, I had said at the time we really did not have a preference, but I really feel that a girl is in our future. Same with Ethiopia we were literally a stamp away from mailing in our profile for domestic adoption and I just kept telling my husband that Ethiopia is in my heart and I feel God is leading us there, and well now we our parents to our blessing of Mighty Mo. And again we put our names on both lists, but I just knew before we were even on the lists or even knew how long the lists were that we were going to be blessed with a boy.

So on to my journal entry that only the Holy Spirit could work up:

Something was whispered across my soul today - at first the country Rwanda, but not just that, a little girl in Rwanda. Then the name Emma, and then the name Maizee. Could this mean twins?

I must pray about this for I need to make sure it is God that I am hearing. Rwanda adoptions run from the age of 2-15 years at the time of referral. Clearly, in my mind, not something in the immediate future. Major reasons would be financial, and the fact that I am still a FT working mother. If we would adopt again, especially an older child I feel it is important to stay home with our children.

Please God give me the courage and wisdom to know when you are commanding and the patience to hear and wait on your plan.

This is what I wrote on that day, and I did not want to forget it. The blog I read today spoke of this very thing. How often times we ignore the whispers of the holy spirit. How many more of us have been called to adopt? And who am I to put earthly limitations on God's possible calling for our family again? Is it scary, YES! Is it out of my comfort zone and beyond what I think our limitations are as a family, YES, YES!

So here I am praying and trying to discern what God has planned for our little family. I am praying for the provision and wisdom to do things so I can be home with our children if it is God's will. Life is a journey and God has the map and I eagerly look forward to his plan for us!

Whisper one: our daughter EJ



Whisper 2: our son Mighty Mo



Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Ephesians 3:20