Heartache and Prayer for My Dad

**Update** 1/27/2010- Dad came through his heart cath Ok. There was no blockage at least, but his heart is not pumping like it should. They hope to help this with medication as long as it does not get any worse. Tomorrow we hear on other tests. Please keep him in your prayers. Thank You!

It seems so many things these days are weighing heavily on my heart, breaking my heart, bringing me to my knees in prayer, so much so I can't even seem to control the tears from brimming as I once could. So many things flowing through my mind, and being whispered across my soul. I really am just confused and not sure what I should do next. Of course I know even in this God has me in his arms and he is waiting patiently for me to rest in him and wait on him to make all this craziness become clear.

Those that followed my other blogs that I have now joined into this one know that last year had a lot of trials for my family. First, this summer my nephew almost died in a bike accident, second, a scare with our new son and the possibility of cancer shortly after he came home from Ethiopia in September. Then a terrible car accident my Father was in, and a couple weeks after that our daughter was life flighted after a long week of fever and other crazy things, and eventually diagnosed with Kawasaki disease. And then when we thought we were getting back to our comfortable normal life :), my Father almost died again and is still dealing with many many issues.

Tomorrow he goes in for a heart cath and I ask for your prayers upon this and for guidance with the Dr.'s as they search for any issues in my Dad's heart and possibly have to fix anything they may find. I also ask for prayers next week as my Dad hears results from a blood and bone marrow test that was performed a couple weeks ago.

I don't mean to sound down and out, as I am not. God has blessed my family more than we deserve every day, but I want people to know that we are here on earth for God. We are here to fulfill our individual purposes in him on earth and he is with us EVERY step of the way even when we think he is not. He loves us that much.

I have always had my Dad on this pedestal of strength and things in the last months have knocked him down and I have seen him weak for the first time in my 32 years of life. The truth is I built him up and God has something in store for him I am sure. He may be physically weak but our spirits our strong in the Lord and tomorrow is a day we will praise him, glorify him, and bow down to him in prayer as my earthly Father is in the hands of the Dr.'s and always in the hands of God.

The Lord gives his people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace.
~ Psalm 29:11